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Moth Cardigan, designed byAmy Christoffers, knit from Rowan SoftYak DK in the Plain colorway, using U.S. size 3 and 5 needles.

Heidi

You guys know my dear friend L-B — she’s the one for whom I designed and knitted the L-Bee Socks. I’m giving my blog to her for this entry, because she’s lost her beloved dog Heidi today. Keep her in your thoughts, please.

The following are her words. 

Heidi
November 1992 – September 13, 2007

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My beloved Heidi died today in my arms under one of her favorite trees and surrounded by the people who cared so lovingly for her through the many illnesses of her life.

She was my constant companion since I adopted her from the SPCA on February 25, 1993, at 3 months of age.

I brought her home as the snow began to fall. It snowed all through the night. When I took her out the next day, she disappeared in the drifts,but hopped out like a rabbit, and repeated the hide and seek in puppy delight.

And every winter, we looked forward to the first snowball. I would toss it like a ball, Heidi would jump to catch it, and get a muzzle full of snow, shaking her head in disbelief that she fell for that trick again!

Heidi loved her walks through the woods and visits to Meadow Farm and Williamsburg where she’d pretend to use her instinct from the border collie genes she must have had.

She was a very shy dog, maybe due to the seizures she had throughout her life, but people were always attracted to her and she responded to their caring touch. She completed her first two levels of Obedience training, as well as the Canine Good Citizen program, where her individual “trick” was to ring a bell at the backdoor when she needed to go out.

I think she passed that on to Molly cat who tweaked it to mean “Feed me, now.”.

I’m convinced that Heidi gained an extra year with us after Clancy came to us. She wasn’t going to let a beagle take her place. It gave her a reason to live over a year after her cancer diagnosis.

She continued to attempt to chase the wild rabbits in our yard and though she couldn’t run and jump in her favorite game of catch, she devised her own new game of bopping her favorite ball back to me with her nose when I rolled it across the floor to her.

Now, even with Clancy and Molly and Lucky to carry on, the house is far too quiet without Heidi. I don’t know how to get used to that, so, in these far too quiet moments,
I’m writing this tribute to Heidi to share with those of you who knew her “in the fur” or in my stories of her.

My heart is broken but that can only be because of all the love she filled it with for nearly 15 years.

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Thank you for all of the healing vibes and prayers you shared with us. Heidi is at peace now over the Rainbow Bridge.

Love,
Lindsey-Brooke

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Lucy sez:

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I’m sending my Auntie L-B extra love! 

Comments

  1. L-B, I am sorry for your loss. Yet I am so happy that you had 15 years with Heidi, sharing innocent and unconditional love. She has moved on and left you with memories of loving quiet moments, lots of laughter, a few times when you might have wanted to scream..just to spice things up..and the companionship of someone who accepts us as we are.
    I do believe in Rainbow Bridge and I believe that they stay with us, living in our hearts. You let her go with love too. At home, with her loved ones. Bless you both.
    Hugs to all.

  2. Dear LB, I had to stop reading the comments…. so many caring thoughts and touching sympathies along with your entry brought me to tears. I’m not sure I can add anything that hasn’t already been said. But I’m sorry for your loss of Heidi.

  3. Wiggley, Mum and I would like to send our thoughts to you and Lucy.

    After reading your post, we felt like we knew Heidi.

    We sure that Heidi is in Heaven – she’s a lovely special somebody who we will all remember in our hearts. God Bless.

  4. L-B, God was certainly in need of some pet companionship this week. We lost our 15-yr old Cairn Terrier Saturday. I have been devastated. I share your grief and pain. Your Heidi and our little Toto have their wings.Hugs, Lisa

  5. L-B – my deepest sympathies on your loss. It is so hard to lose someone so close to you – be them human or with fur or feathers. They can never be replaced, but their memories can be cherished.

    With much sympathy,

    Vickie

  6. L-B
    so very sorry for your loss, its hard, i know to lose a close canine friend.

    Sharon

  7. Altho I never knew Heidi, I can sympathize with how you are feeling right now. She’ll be looking in on you from heaven, you are still her family.

  8. I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how you must be feeling right now, but know that you are in the thoughts and prayers of many people across the country who read Wendy’s blog and know what a good friend your are to her.

  9. L-B,
    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss! My thoughts are with you…

  10. L-B, I’m so sorry. We lost our dog, Violet, seven years ago this month to a brain tumor. So I’m crying again, for you and for us. I am so glad that there are such special dogs in this world, who can live so deeply in our hearts. Our lives are richer for them. I think that is why it hurts so much when we can no longer see and hold them.

  11. L-B – I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your beautiful dog. My heart breaks for you and I too have shared some tears with you as you and the rest of your brood at home adjust to the quiet void left by Heidi’s passing.

  12. LB I am so sorry for your loss – you are on a road I have been down before. May your memories of Heidi comfort you.

    Pat

  13. L-B, I’m so sorry to hear that you have lost your Heidi. The special relationships we have with our animals are the best, and our time with them is too short. I hope you feel comfort knowing that we are thinking of you and sending our warmest regards during this sad time.

  14. I only know you through Wendy’s blog, but I feel for your loss. It’s clear that you and Heidi spent many wonderful moments together. When you provided her a forever-home, she blessed you as well. *hugs* to you

  15. L-B, I’m so sorry for your loss. Heidi sounds like a wonderful friend, and I can see why you will miss her. Take care.

  16. so sorry for your loss, sending hugs

  17. I just wanted to add my condolences, L-B. I also only know you through Wendy’s blog, but as a fellow pet companion, I understand. May all of your fond memories of Heidi help you through this very difficult time.

  18. L-B, I’m so sorry to hear about the passing of Heidi. On Tuesday, my husband held our dog, Chrissy, as she took her last breaths. He received this sweet little American Eskimo from a rescue in 2000 and she became my “step-dog” about two years ago when we got married. She also was a bit shy as we’re pretty sure that she had been abused before my husband got her. However, he spoiled her rotten which was probably just what she needed. We think she was about 15 but still will miss that furry face and those big brown eyes that greeted us every day. Dogs are so special. Hold onto the wonderful memories of Heidi as we do of Chrissy.

  19. Michelle from Arizona says:

    Personally I believe in prayer and heaven and life after death INCLUDING our most beloved friends and family members, our puppies, kitties, birds, etc. Saying a prayer for Heidi to have a beautiful heavenly life and for your broken heart to mend L-B. Mine hurts for you.

  20. L-B, I’m so sorry for your loss and send big comforting hugs your way. Wendy, thanks for giving L-B the chance to share such wonderful words about her friend.

    I bawl like a soap-opera star every single time someone mentions the Rainbow Bridge. It’s like a parlor trick or something.

  21. I’m so sorry for your loss. Critters provide so much love and happiness, it’s nice that we get to have that! But a sad dirty trick that they live such a short time…

    Hugs!

  22. Oh, poor L-B!

  23. I’m so sorry for your loss, L-B. My thoughts and support will be with you.

  24. I’m so very sorry for your loss L-B. Big hugs to you!

  25. L-B,
    Deepest sympathies to you for your loss. I have loved and lost dear pets and it never gets any easier. She was lucky to have you and vice versa.
    Hugs.

  26. I am so sorry for your loss. My family is going through heart break right now also, we had to put our dog Zacchaeus to sleep last Saturday (9/8) he also had Cancer, he was 13 1/2. My mother describes the house as a morgue, it is so quiet not having the boss of the house around.
    Our prays and thoughts are with you.

    Heidi

  27. L-B,
    I’m so sorry, sending big hugs your way.

  28. As a dog-lover, I totally sympathize with you, L-B. I lost one of my pets a few years ago and it was one of the hardest experiences I have ever gone through. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.

  29. All of us who are animal lovers are crying with you even though we may not know you or your Heidi…. I know you will always tresure her memory as I do the dogs and cats in my past. You will love the surviving ones even more.

  30. Losing a pet is so hard. Healing thoughts are with you!
    Sheri (Libby and Maggi) in GA

  31. I can barely see for crying, it is so amazing how much we can love the pets in our lives. My heart goes out to you.

  32. L-B, I am so sorry about your Heidi. She was lucky to grow up and old in such a loving home.

  33. I am so very sorry for your friend’s loss of dear Heidi. I am absolutely sure they will meet again in a better place.

  34. Oh L-B, I’m so very sorry… but I am so very happy that Heidi knew love, and devotion, and tenderness in her wonderful life with you!

  35. (sorry, got cut off before I finished that)

    Oh L-B, I’m so very sorry… but I am so very happy that Heidi knew love, and devotion, and tenderness in her wonderful life with you!

    It is amazing how a goofy, fur-covered soul can wander into our lives one day, and with a purr or the wag of a tail, make our lives so much the better. The day Hunter came into Merrill’s life as his service dog, our lives took on a whole new level of work and trials, but after 3 months, we finally made it through a store with Merrill holding onto Hunter’s work vest, without Merrill collapsing. The first time in his 4 years of life Merrill was able to walk through a store without pain and tears, all because his “Eesha” was there to lean on!

    L-B, our trainer would like to name the next service dog to come in for training as a seizure alert dog Heidi, if that is ok with you. Maybe our Heidi will bring love to someone else as your Heidi so obviously did.

  36. So sorry for your loss.

  37. kim in oregon says:

    I lost our beautiful Shasta in June, and our other puppy love had terminal cancer, so I know what you’re going through now, and how incredibly hard it is. My thoughts are with you, and you’ll always treasure the wonderful times you had together.

  38. L-B, I’m terribly sorry to hear of your loss. The loss of a loved one is hard to accept, and from reading your experience here, it is quite obvious that you loved Heidi quite a bit. May her soul rest in peace and without the pain that her cancer may have brought her in life, and may you find the peace that you may seek as you grieve her loss.

  39. Pax, L-B. Those we love are never truly gone.

  40. The loss of a steadfast loving companion of 14+ years is a big loss, indeed. Strength and Comfort to all who are grieving.

    (And I LOVE the Garden Path socks.)

  41. I can only hope your other pets can give you some comfort. After losing my Jack Russell of 17 years (eek!) my other dog spent a few days just snuggling with me on the couch. I think we were both grieving together. Your Heidi will always be with you in spirit-
    Hugs!

  42. LB
    I’m so sorry to hear your Heidi died.
    When sorrow comes,
    As sorrow must,
    All that can help us
    Are time and trust –
    Time, the great healer
    of grief and sorrow,
    Trust, in the thought
    of a brighter tomorrow.

  43. I’m so sorry L-B. I hope the pain of her loss fades soon, but the happy and loving memories of her remain strong and bright.

  44. I’m so sorry. Yesterday was a sad day for me, too, as I had to say goodbye to my dear old cat Hobbes last night. Coming home from work this afternoon and knowing he wouldn’t be meeting me at the door after 17 years was really tough. All of our pets are dear to us and each is special, but I do believe some are just so vibrant and PRESENT in our daily lives than others that they leave a particularly large empty space behind when they are gone. But aren’t we lucky to have had such love in our lives, even though it hurts like crazy? Big hugs to you, L-B.

  45. L-B,
    The Meezer and I send you lots of healing (((((hugs)))))

    We know. We’ve been there, too. It’s just so hard. But it helps a little to have the others there with you. And to know you’ll see Heidi again, at the Rainbow Bridge (but not too soon).

  46. Reading your post and Rainbow Bridge brought tears to my eyes. I know how hard it is to lose a beloved member of the family. Just to know how much joy and love she brought to your life and you to hers is a comfort. We’re lucky to have each other.

  47. l-b, i am so so sorry for your loss.

  48. Oh, please let her know that my heart is with her.
    My bree died thursday evening also. She wasn’t sick, she was only 7yrs old. We have no idea why, but I know exactly how she feels. Love and hugs to her, and to you for posting this beautiful blog dedicated to Heidi.

  49. My heart goes out to you. In May I lost my dear Maggie. She too was a wonder of a dog. We had rescued her from a woodpile where she and her brother and sisters had been left for dead. There is such a bond from a thankful pet. She was also my first dog as an adult. Seemed like she was always by my side or on my feet (her favorite place to be while I was typing along online). I miss her so. Silly times too, like when my feet are cold while I am answering email. SHe also loved laying on my yarn when I was trying to knit.
    Anyway, This is about you and Heidi not about me. I just want to say that you are not alone, and as sad as it is, you will come across another way to find your bliss.

  50. Julie the Purple Chick says:

    L-B ~ I weep for you. Love, Julie

  51. Words escape me – but tears do not. They are flowing like she was part of my family from your beautiful tribute.

    My most sincere condolences to you and your family and when the time is right — Heidi will let you know which little brother or sister you should choose to come live with you to help you heal.

    Much love and many hugs and please don’t hesitate to email if you feel like chatting with a sympathetic (stranger’s) ear, who also loves her pets.

    KA

  52. I’m so sorry, L-B.

  53. I am so sorry to hear of your loss–I know how very much a part of the family our beloved pets are. May the memories of your beautiful Heidi sustain you and bring you peace in the days to come.
    I want to share this versionof The Rainbow Bridge with you…
    http://www.indigo.org/rainbowbridge_ver2.html
    Peace and Hugs-

    Cindy and Shih Tzu Roxy

  54. I’m very sad for you and I’m very sorry; I know it’s hard to loose more than a friend you’ve loved so much. I think of you two (sorry for my english, I’m french)
    Love
    laurence

  55. Wow…. there isn’t much I can say that hasn’t been said already, is there?

  56. I’m sorry for your loss, L-B. Pets are truly amazing and I know what its like to lose a beloved pet… You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

  57. L-B, I lost my black dog Sheeba the same day you lost Heidi. Wendy left a comment on my blog that day and it’s taken me this long to read through them without crying. My heart goes out to you at this difficult time. Stay strong. x

  58. Shame on me for not writing sooner, L-B, but the day I sat and read about Heidi, I cried so much I couldn’t type a word. My girls walked up and asked why I was crying. When I told them, they both cried, too, as they lost their first dear friends, Shadow and Dan, at a very young age to a cruel neighbor who poisoned them.

    God has blessed me with two very dear dogs, two very dear cats and a beautiful, loving llama, so far. Little Anne is still with me, but she is getting up in years, and I dread the day she crosses the Rainbow Bridge.

    Thank you for sharing this sad day with us, and thank you, Heidi, for sharing your life with L-B. Many hugs and much love, L-B, to you and your furry family.

  59. L-B, sending lots of hugs your way. Bosco and Sophia send you their dog-tail wags, barks and licks.
    Hugs!